Sunday, March 18, 2012

Birth Control Controversy

P and I were discussing the new issue surrounding birth control that has come up in this country lately.  I am not up to speed 100% so please forgive me for any inaccuracies that I may state.

My original stance was screw that, insurance should HAVE to pay for birth control.  Its the woman's right to use it, why deny that right blah blah blah.

But P brought up a good point.  Its not health related.  Its to prevent pregnancy which is not a health threat.  However, birth control CAN be used for health reasons and to protect from a health threat if pregnancy would be detrimental to that woman's health.  And in that case, yes it should be paid for.  Let's take this further, why not have insurance companies pay for condoms as well?  Condoms prevent STD's and pregnancy which are two "large ticket" items.

Furthermore, insurance companies pay for the most ridiculous things these days like medicine for thicker eye lashes.  If those kind of drugs can be paid for, which are not health related, then why shouldn't birth control be paid for?  Some insurance companies even pay for cosmetic surgery (not due to loss of say breasts with cancer but for purely cosmetic reasons) and yet people want to stop birth control from being paid for.

In response to the whole Catholic institutions refusing to have insurance pay for birth control, I think it is crazy.  I can see both sides though.  They are against birth control and therefore should not have to pay for something that is against their beliefs.  However, their employees should not have to "suffer" due to their employers beliefs.  Whether it is working for a Catholic school or a Catholic boss.  Yes the Catholic institution is paying for the insurance premiums, but the insurance company is paying for the drugs.  And what about those companies who have their employees contribute to their premiums?  Can we deny them access?  No.

Its a very hot ticket topic right now and there are people on both sides of the fence who are vehemently passionate about their case.   Personally I think we need to worry about other hot topics like say getting people off of unemployment and getting jobs back into the country instead of worrying about paying for birth control.  But hey, cosmetic issues are always more important in this country than the real issues.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

St Patty's Day Babies and Tears

Today is another bad baby day.  It's St Patrick's Day and facebook is flooded with pictures of kids dressed in green.  Its breaking my heart </3

Today I want a baby more than anything.  And it hurts, it hurts so fucking bad.  Today is one of those days where my heart is outweighing the logic of my brain and telling me I am a complete moron for taking away the chance of me EVER having a baby of my own.

Excuse me while I go sulk in the corner for the rest of the weekend....

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Something to do with Myself

Lately I have been feeling really antsy and bored with my life.  The whole not working thing has finally caught up with me.  Not too shabby that I have been on SSDI for almost 2 years now and just starting to get bored.  Of course last year I did 9 months of work and I have been in school, so that lessened the boredom load.

However, the past few weeks I have just been on edge.  And it isn't a depression type edge where I need my meds again.  Its just a feeling of not doing anything and doing the same things over and over.

I thought not working would be absolutely FABULOUS!  And it was for a while.  I worked on my health, I crochet'd, I read a bunch of books, I went back to school, I started cooking dinner most nights, I got to sleep in every day, I could visit family in PA whenever I felt like it.  But then you watch the same shows over and over again.  You crochet enough that your hands hurt.  You read as many books as you can.  You are broke and can't take those trips to PA as often. And then you have nothing.  Believe me, there are more books for me to read and more crocheting to be done, but I need something else.  I need to be doing something that takes me out of the home.  Having more friends would really help, but I am at a disadvantage there.

So instead, a fellow Cyster hooked me up at a local farm that does lessons for the disabled, on horseback.  How awesome is that?!?! I went today to shadow her so I could get an idea of what goes on.  Especially because the website mentions jogging with the horses for short stints.  I was a bit nervous about that, but after being there today I am confident I can handle it.  It felt great being around the horses again and to be doing something productive!

I have to send my application in and then I can start.  Just once a week I think for now as I don't want to overdo it.  I was there almost 2 hours and that was plenty for me.  Not that I wanted to leave per say, but I could feel myself getting tired.  There are some hills to walk up, nothing steep or long, but they do take their toll on you.  Especially since I am sore from all the exercise I have been doing.  I am really looking forward to starting and can't wait to help make a difference!

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Wanning Blog Readers

I have noticed lately that my posts aren't been read as much as they used to be.  I want t change this.  I miss the days of 300 views for one post (yes my ego is hurt by the drop LOL).

So I need some ideas of posts that would spark reader interest again.  What do YOU all want to read about?!?!?!?!?

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Exercise Regime - Days 5-8

I may not have posted about them but I exercised Monday through Thursday again.  30 minutes each day on Wii step aerobics.  Monday I only did 20 minutes because I was feeling under the weather.

Still have not lost any weight.  One day I am down 3lbs, the next day I am back up 2lbs and the day after another half pound.  The test will be the doctors in April!

3 more weeks of this and my hair can get done!!!!!!  Very excited about that!  And if I stick with it through May, I will treat myself to the tattoo I have been wanting to get in Bree's honor :)  I figure if I can exercise till May then I can get the tat on the anniversary of her death in remembrance of her.

Friday, March 9, 2012


A friend of mine posted about sleep patterns with advancing stages of CF and the amount of sleep needed.  It got me thinking.  Am I sleeping as much as I NEED or as much as I WANT?  And that sleep I am getting, is it detrimental to my health instead of helping?

I usually go to bed around midnight and wake up around 6:30 when P gets up.  They leave around 7:15 and I go back to sleep.  Sometimes right away and sometimes it takes over an hour.  Lately its been the latter.  I have been having some sleeping issues and I don't like it.  Starting with waking up a few times a night.  This is not normal for me at all.  Then not being able to get back to sleep after they leave in the morning.  Its brutal!  I even upped my Melatonin intake to try to combat it, but to no avail.

Why do I sleep so much?  Do I need to get the 10 hours I aim for?  Or do I just like sleeping that much?  And if it is the latter, am I harming my body by sleeping that much more?

I have to wonder if I sleep because I am bored.  Let's think about this.  What else am I going to do during the day?  Watch TV?  Shop? Surf the net?  Its not like I have a slew of friends I can hang out with, or family I can visit.  Crafts take money, which I am lacking on.  School work only takes up so much time.  So maybe I sleep so I don't have to face the boredom of not working.  Its very possible.  But sleeping that much when I don't need to can't be all that great for my health.  Sure rest is rejuvenating, but too much is harmful....right?

Maybe I need to just get up when I wake up and then the restlessness will go away.  If I get bored then I can figure something out.

I need to win the lottery!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Kony 2012 - end the violence

KONY 2012

Watch this video then visit to find out how YOU can help stop this madman from tearing children away from their parents just to join his army so he can stay in power.  The US government needs to know that they people care so they don't pull the 100 troops they have there helping the Uganda army find and arrest Joseph Kony.  He needs to be stopped in 2012.  26 years of retched violence is enough.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Exercise Regime - Days 3 & 4

I forgot to post on Wednesday and Thursday.  I did 30 minutes each day again of step aerobics on the wii.  Today I took a break.  I figure 4 days is good for my first week!

Wednesday I had issues with my blood sugars and had to scarf down some sugar right after.  Thursday they were fine again.

Still learning this whole CFRD thing and exercise!