Today is another bad baby day. It's St Patrick's Day and facebook is flooded with pictures of kids dressed in green. Its breaking my heart </3
Today I want a baby more than anything. And it hurts, it hurts so fucking bad. Today is one of those days where my heart is outweighing the logic of my brain and telling me I am a complete moron for taking away the chance of me EVER having a baby of my own.
Excuse me while I go sulk in the corner for the rest of the weekend....
I have been living those days off an on for 13 years. . . I HATE mothers day for that exact reason. Over the years I have learned to stuff the sadness and disappointment deep down inside. haha.
ReplyDeleteFunny Mother's Day doesn't bother me lol
DeleteI stuff it deep down inside most days too. Saturday was just en emotional day for me I guess. Peter and I had plans ruined and I think it just over took every other thing in my head haha!
hey amy, i know that feeling. well, you've read my blog. kids are great and i know maybe one day they'll be a way we can have them. surrogate? adopt? there are so many kids out there that need love. i think i might adopt, probably an older kid like 3 or 4 yrs old. i hate the baby stage. they are a ton of work and all those germs. my nephew wears me out after an afternoon, imagine everyday!! don't be sad, their kids might be awful to the parents once they are teenagers and we'll be the cool adults who can relate to their problems. hehe. honestly i feel your sadness but in the end what meant to be is meant to be. <3
ReplyDeleteAnd I know it is meant to be, but some days that logic doesn't hold HAHAH!
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