I wanted to write this long post about how I am feeling lately. But I just don't feel like it. And that statement alone sums it all up....I am in a funk....I need to get out of it. I am blah with a capital B L A H.
I think a lot of it has to do with the lack of female body parts, and the lack of being able to see someone about it. My surgeon told me I have to see my PCP, but I can't get in to my PCP until after May! If I didn't like her so much I would ditch her and find someone new....P wants to anyway. Maybe after February I will consider it.
If you ever saw the movie Groundhog Day, that is how my life feels right now....same thing day in and day out. I HATE IT. I need change. I need something different. Not P, definitely NOT P. I love him, he needs to stay where he is. But the rest....I dunno.......
*sigh*
Hi Amy! Nice to "meet" you. I've added your blog to the CF Blogroll. Sorry you're having a tough time lately - I hate this time of year, it always feels like the longest and boring-est time in the whole year. Here's hoping that things brighten up for you soon! And I totally understand your last post about survivor's guilt... I have ahd the incredible luck to be on Kalydeco this year, and after several really hard years physically and emotionally, I'm having the best year of my life. All my friends, on the other hand, seem to be really struggling. It's very hard to on the one hand feel so grateful for how well I'm doing, but on the other, feel so guilty that I can't share that....
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