Sunday, June 17, 2012

Decision Made

Well as much as I was thinking that Wayne Gretsky was correct when he said "you miss 100% of the shots you never take", I had to accept the realization that I just should not apply for the job.

Believe me, I would love to.  But the truth is, I am not the type of person to just work somewhere for 3 months and then quit.  Even if I hate it I will stay much longer than needed.  If I were to get sick again and need to stop in 3 or even 6 months I would feel obligated to work twice as long and end up much sicker than I am now.

So for me, the choice to bypass this opportunity is the right one.  I can finish school without any worries.  I can concentrate on my health.  And in 18 months if they are still hiring or hiring again I can apply and see how it goes.  Even if I don't have my transplant by then.  But at least I can give it my all at that point and not have to juggle school, full time work and a family.

Its a tough choice but it had to be made.  I remember how long I struggled on deciding to stop working 30 months ago.  I struggled for over a year with the choice before finally agreeing that it was worth my while to do it.  I don't think I have that kind of leeway anymore with my health.

Oh goes on eh?


  1. I'm sad that such a choice had to be made, but I feel it was the right one.