Saying goodbye to my Step-Mom

Well I guess now it is safe to explain why I was asking for prayers for my Step mom.  She has brain, liver, lymph node and breast cancer.  I was informed today that she only has a few days left.  She was admitted to the hospital a few weeks ago and was continuing treatments.  As of today she is stopping all treatments and is just on meds to keep her pain free.  She is totally out of it and doesn't know that anyone is there or where she is.

When I first found out about the brain cancer (most recent) I was kind of blah.  I knew that eventually the cancer would kill her.  But I am the type that unless you tell me so and so has 2 days I won't be upset by it.  Call me mean and cold hearted, I don't care.  It's just how I roll.  So today hearing the news has brought on the water works.  I didn't get to see her last time I was home because she didn't want to see anyone.  So the last time I saw her was in April when Peter and Emily met her.

I want to drive down for a day or two to see everyone, my dad and step family, but I don't know.  She is out of it so she won't know I am there, even though I would like to say good bye.  I just don't know what to do.  The wedding is next weekend so I would have to come back up here to get Peter for that and the funeral.  I have no problem with that at all.  Just don't know if I should.

So again I am asking for prayers, but this time, pray for a painless and easy passing.

Thank You