Wednesday as I was chatting on the phone with my BFF, I mentioned how I miss working. I do. I miss being relied on for help on the professional level. There is something about actually working that makes me feel good, makes me feel important, makes me feel useful.
Then Thursday I received an email that could again make me feel useful.
An old colleague from a previous, though not most recent, job emailed me. The company I used to work for is looking for outside consultants for some construction drawings. They are overwhelmed with work, hopefully for the next year, and looking to hire some previous employees to help with the workload. It is all done at home and they set you up with a computer system so you have access to all the company architectural files to complete the work. You can complete as many or as little sets as you want and you are paid based on what you do. So if if takes 4 hours or 30 hours to do the set you get the same amount of money.
Is it just me or does this sound totally perfect?
But here is the dilemma....
Based on their payment fees, if I were to stop receiving long term disability and only receive SSDI, I could only work on one set a month. Hardly seems worth it to me. But if I were to stop LTD and SSDI I could double my current income.
But is this something I want to do?
I think about the passed 10 months and what all I went through to get approved for SSDI and MassHealth. It was not easy. Would I be able to get right back on SSDI if I were to stop right now? Would I be able to keep my health insurance? Would I be able to maintain my health, my clean home, and the duties of my "new" stay at home girlfriend job?
What to do, what to do...