Anyway. I am happy as I am being single and I realized that most of my pining was because of what that person could do for me. Mainly supporting me when the time comes for me not to work.
But I need to get over that and not like someone based on what they can do for me. I am too much of a romantic for that!
So my new though process is to be rid of these, jealous, lusty, longing feelings for men I will never wed and move on to more important things, like crochet ;)