Home from MA (UPDATED WITH PIC)

I am home and I am exhausted.  The services were beautiful.  It was great meeting her parents and sister and Andy.  And of course some of her friends.  It was sad and for some reason hugging her dad made me cry the hardest.  Even now as I write this I am tearing up.  I started crying when I walked in but when it came my turn to introduce myself to him I squeaked out "I'm Amy from CF chat too".  You know those sobs that you feel coming on and you can tell you are just gonna burst at the seam?  That's how I felt, but I didn't.  I bawled but not audibly.  

Even after attending the services it still doesn't seem real.  It still seems like a dream or a joke.  She isn't really gone...not findingJenn.  Not our Jenn.  

I'm trying to put a positive spin on it.  The Lord felt she was needed now.  That she was better served with Him as she was and not in a few years, or 20.  Perhaps he needs her more than we do.  It doesn't feel that way.  I will miss reading her blog updates.  I will miss her in chat.  

All week I have been thinking about a comment she left on my blog.  Here is the post.  I have thought about it over and over since I found out she was in a coma.  It's not her time, but alas I guess it really was....

I have so many more tears inside and I hope I can shed them before long.  

On a positive note.  It was fabulous meeting Talana finally!  I have a picture of us together but since I am so tired I will upload it tomorrow and add it here.

I also have other news to update on but that will wait until Sunday.  I have to write it all out first....

here is the picture of Talana and I outside the Church where the lunch was held after the services.  Jenn's awesome sister took the picture for us.

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