I hate being miserable. It is not becoming on me. I should smile, people tell me all the time I have a great smile. But today is one of those days where I am miserable. Actually I was happy up until a few hours ago. Dam mood swings. I have been wondering for some time now if I have PMDD. I decided to keep track since alot of the symptoms are things I experience a week before I get my period. All of my recent emotional breakdowns (these are categorized by uncontrollable crying and feeling deperate) happened the week before I got my period. Then once I get it I am good, I feel great. I actually PRAY for my period to come so that I can be happy again. This has been going on for years!!! Every month I wish this. But it just dawned on me recently that maybe it is more than just PMS. I'm gonna keep track for the next 3 months and see how things go. if I notice a pattern (which I am bound to see) then I will be mentioning it to my OB. I'm already on anti-depressants so what they can do for me is beyond me.
Great, possible one more thing to add to my list. Oh yay!
I'm one of those ones that doesn't often seem depressed, but I have faught it for at least 22 years. The older I get, the more vicious it gets. I've done meds and psychologists in the past, and they work to an extent, but not perfect. I am a guy, as you know, so I don't get PMS (duh). But I do notice a cyclical nature to my depression, so no matter how vicious by bad cycle phase is, I usually remember that a good phase is up ahead. Sometimes that's enough to cheer me up. Sometimes not.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a more chemical thing with you; the PMS/DD sounds like a valid culprit.
At least you know you are liked, and like life a lot, it seems. That's a huge part of life's battle.