I am opening this blog saying I don’t want to hear anything like “oh maybe someday” or “well you
Did you ever just KNOW something? For me I always knew I would
But that is meant to build up to my next insight. I don’t think I am meant to marry. Again, I always wanted to be a wife and do the domestic thing. But I just don’t see ME as a wife. I don’t see my settling down and being all wifey. My friend D and I chatted about this a few years ago and I said I just didn’t see how I fit the mold of a wife. She said I didn’t fit the mold of a traditional wife but she thought I would make a good one. Yes I think I would make a good one too but I just don’t see me in those shoes. It’s hard to explain what I mean. Yes I would like to get married and yes I wanna find the man of my dreams and marry him and be super happy but I know my happiness doesn’t depend on a man and especially not on the man of my dreams. I am happy now. (My mood has risen since the holidays are just about over and I now have New Year’s plans).
All that to say that I get annoyed when people ask me when I am gonna get married or scoff at me when I say, yet again, that my boyfriend and I broke up. I don’t wanna hear it. I don’t want people telling me that I will
Being married, having a hubby and a family seems all hunkie-dorie but it just doesn’t seem like ME.