I have that antsy feeling. Discontent, out of sorts, restless, anxious, edgy. All the same things I felt when I was deciding whether or not to move to
Perhaps it is my feeling of uncertainty with my job. The housing market blows right now which everyone is aware of and it has hit us here at work. We have laid a few people off in the past few months and we are still short on work. I get nervous that I might be next. I work hard, I show up all the time, but I still don’t feel safe and secure. I used to, before I got sick and before I changed my work schedule. Now I feel like a slacker even though I am still working 40 hours a week. I hate feeling like this.
I hate needing to change my life. It makes me nervous to ever settle down with someone. Will I need change after a few years with that person or will I change with him? That type of thing. Beats me. I just know that today at work I felt something stir in me…the stir that happened many moons ago and brought me to where I am now. It took me a VERY long time (ok just a year but still) to act on that movement in me; will it take me that long yet again? Or should I ignore it until the urge is too great and I do something drastic like move to
If you are confused by this mess just imagine how I feel haha! I can’t sort out everything in my head and this random blog hasn’t done anything either except voice it to the 7 people that read it.
Perhaps tomorrow I will wake up with more direction in my life or maybe I will be just as confused…who knows…